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Life puts us in situations that constantly challenge us to grow and expand. It is up to us how we choose to experience those situations. It is we who decide whether it is a good or bad situation. We create that polarity. Regardless of how we perceive it, it is an opportunity to expand consciousness. Let me share with you what I recently experienced to grow and expand.
I decided to go see my absolute favorite band perform this past weekend. The closest they came to my area was 3 hours away. ROAD TRIP! I was beyond excited. I knew that night would definitely be life changing, I just didn't know how. You see, the last time I saw them was when I finally acknowledged that I wanted to work with musicians.
As we approached the venue, I started to get very nervous. Was it my excitement? Anticipation? My intuition? Reflecting on the night, it was majority my intuition with a little anticipation mixed in to the scenario.
We watched the first band, cool, the second band came on and the energy shifted downward. I was not resonating with their music or performance at all. I observed the audience and it was fascinating how they seemed to almost be in a trance. I could delve further into this band, but that is for another day. Three quarters of the way through their performance, the experience presented itself for my growth.
Two women came up behind my daughter and me. If you are familiar with general seating, then you know it is standing room only. You tend to become very familiar with those around you. There was however, still a fair amount of room since it wasn't the main act. One of the women proceeded to bump into my daughter and I heard her say I am sorry. Great. Shortly after that, I felt liquid splashing on my back from her drink.
I turned to her (the same woman) and said, "Hey your drink is spilling." She looked right at me and said, "Chill out, it's just a concert." Mind you, I felt no aggression in my being. I was sharing this with her because I didn't want to have her drink spilled all over me and I didn't know if she was aware that her drink was spilling, it was completely full. I responded with, "I really don't want to have it on my ass." Her response? She threw the entire drink in my face.
I immediately couldn't see, nor could I open my eyes because they burned so much. I thought to myself, do they put acid in mixed drinks nowadays? Every one around my was asking if I was alright, but the most pressing matter at hand was getting the liquid out of my eyes, if I was going to be able to see, and if I still had contacts. The next moment, was the defining moment. How was I going to respond to her?
My response was none at all. I didn't turn around and acknowledge her again. In that moment, I made the choice to stay silent, immediately feeling and recognizing the pain she is in from many things in her life. I was also not going to leave the concert. My band wasn't even performing yet! ** In the distant past, I definitely would have retaliated. I have evolved since then.
According to my daughter she did back up...probably not sure if I would retaliate or not. Shortly after that she moved a littler further in front of us to the left. She tried to make eye contact with me, but I wouldn't further engage with her. That was the best I could do in that moment.
I was not going to engage her in any way. I could feel that would just exacerbate The turmoil that was within her. I had no desire to continue to be the outlet for it. I focused inward, as to how I could bring myself back to my peaceful state.
Yes, it did rattle me. I would love to say that it didn't. That would definitely not be a true statement. I was relieved when my band finally came on stage and changed the vibration of the room. I did take note that she left at the start of the song called "How Did You Love." ;-) I had a fabulous, sticky, one contact time enjoying every moment after the interaction! (yes, I realized later that one of my contacts got washed out of my eye)
Moving forward, I still have choice. I choose not to be a victim. I choose to allow whatever emotions to arise to flow. I know that I did the best I could in that moment. I choose to learn from the experience. Maybe she did too, or not. That is up to her. But may she be blessed in all that she does. I choose only love. Love of myself, love for everyone around me and love for her.
I have heard from many in how they would have reacted. What they would have done. (How can one really know until you are in the situation?) How would you ultimately like to respond in a situation like the story I shared? Would you have gotten in her face? Punched her? Gotten security? Another response?
No matter what the scenario is, remember this, we are all doing the best we can in every moment. Yes....even the woman. How aware we are on our consciousness definitely plays a role in our responses.
For those with eyes to see and ears to hear. I love you.
Until next time...
** A very fascinating note was that three more fights broke out to the right of us after that interaction. The power of the vibration of the music being played, the people's vibration played a role.
The energies are so lovingly supporting our growth right now as individuals and as a collective. PHEW! Ha! Ha! With all of this shifting that is occurring, something is speaking to me loud and clear. And that very topic is attachments.
As you grow throughout your spiritual journey, there is a very common teaching to get rid of attachments. The teaching talks about attachments to things, people, places, etc. cause suffering. That the way to enlightenment is to release all attachments. I do understand the point the lesson is trying to make.
The point is that we hold onto things, people, places, etc and cause our own suffering and make our growth feel like we are going through mud because we are not willing to let go of anything in order to expand our consciousness. Have you, as a lightworker, ever worked on releasing all attachments, getting rid of all material things as to not be attached and deemed a place, person or thing toxic to you to rid yourself of attachment? (Of course if you are being abused in anyway, please know that I am not suggesting you stay in that situation ever) That all relationships (all forms) just weigh you down and keep you from enlightenment?
There comes a point on the journey where you recognize that in attachments so much growth occurs and in those attachments enlightenment happens. You might be asking, "huh?" I will explain from my perspective. The old paradigm was to rid yourself from all attachments, that is abundantly clear, and great to a point. The new paradigm is to have the attachments and to still move forward. We spend so much time ridding ourselves of attachments, letting go of things, people, places, healing from other things from our past....Do you see the theme? All negative connotations. That all of it is something to "get rid-off."
What if we are to embrace the attachments? Relationship is where a serious amount of growth occurs. Whether it's the relationship with ourselves, others, places, things, etc. What if we are to attach to whatever you wish to latch on? To embrace and feel ALL that there is to feel and emote with those connections? To do so consciously? To know, that with the attachments, there is a time that the energies of them will shift and transform? To lovingly embrace all that those shifts have to offer you as a human? (So many questions! ;-) )
We are no longer here to transcend the human experience, but rather are here to embrace the experience and integrate our Soul into this participitory process. This is heart-centered living my friends. To be raw, open and vulnerable in every moment. To attach and allow the flow to transmute and transform energies. To feel the attachments AND move forward in your life in whatever way is necessary. Very powerful stuff.
I am not talking about stagnating energies, I am talking about attaching AND keeping the flow. Some people may still say that it causes suffering so you should get rid of it....I say nope...it is a part of being alive. Embrace all of it (attachments included) and embrace closure (transmutation) when it happens. It is a breathtaking experience.
I love you. You are amazing. I am in awe.
Until next time...
As we go along this journey of our human lives, for many of us there is an awareness that is felt more than just understanding the concept and the words. As this awareness is integrated into our being, the need for words no longer applies. For this blog post and for those that are in need of the words, I will do my best (as always) to provide the words for you...
If you have read any books or heard talks from many of the spiritual power houses, they talk a fair amount about the I AM presence, the Oneness, Beingness, our connection to all things (energies) as an extension of who we are. I bet if you are reading this, you conceptually understand what that means. In some ways you may feel the connection. That's great! Conceptually knowing it and living it are two different things.
Please know that it is beautiful if you have it conceptually. That could very well be the catalyst to bring you into the vibration to live in the perpetual state of "Oneness." Do you have to get it conceptually before you live it? Nope. It can just occur. And... if you are already living it, then there is no need to conceptualize it. Nor talk about it. You just ARE.
Have you ever watched the movie the Matrix? If you have, then you may remember the scene below:
You may be thinking, "What in the hell are you talking about and why are you sharing about a spoon with the Oneness?" I am sharing the spoon scene because part of being able to connect with the I AM is about our perception. A PART of it that is.
The bigger part is being in the heart centered space. When you can continually be in and come from your heart center, then your perception can be from the universal perspective. From the universal perspective, there is no spoon. Have I lost you yet? Good! ;-)
We only call the spoon that name because we are taught that it is a spoon. We see it in the form that it is because we were taught that is what it is. We are taught to only see it in one way. The way the person who taught us sees it. Everything we are taught about it is everything it is not. It IS a vibration. It IS energy. It IS us. There is nothing to question, nothing to see outside of us. Did I just hear you say WTF? HA! HA! HA!
This is the case with everything. Once we try to label or identify, then a separateness is created. Yes, in this paradigm, there is the duality, however, being in a heart centered space, duality is seen from a the universal perspective and not how we perceive it at all....
Just take some deep breaths. Just BE with what I have shared. Take some more deep breaths and sit with this.....If someone were to ask you, "How would you describe the color blue to someone who has been blind since birth?" What would you say? And where is your response truly coming from?
I love you. You are completely amazing.
Until next time...
Flip the freaking switch. Yes! That is what happened with me since my last post. A switch was flipped and there is no turning back. The light bulb is on! I am coming home! ....You may be thinking I have finally lost it. It is a possiblity. :-)
Some people say that it's because of the astrology that is going on as to why things happen in our lives. Or the other various lists of external things that cause energies to shift in our lives. Blah. Blah. Fucking blah. Don't get me wrong, I do enjoy looking at the different astrological aspects that are going on through out the year. However, if we are the Divine Expression as well as the planets, cosmos, etc, are the Divine Expression, then saying those things are controlling our energy is yet another way we can keep ourselves small, look externally for answers, and that their energies are stronger than we are(yet we are an expression just like they are)....right? RIGHT...Did you ever stop to think about what our energies do to them? HA! It's a great way to keep us from being present with our life as it is in this moment.
Regardless of what you believe, I flipped a freaking switch last week. I went from having feelings of being a failure(yes, they still flop in occasionally, especially since a "friend" loved to point out my flaws) to being so at peace and comfort in my own skin that I won another round of a speech contest I am involved in. The funny thing is I stepped into the speech contest program to get out of my comfort zone and I stepped into my comfort zone and greatness. The winning is a by product and has never been the goal. HOW COOL IS THAT?!?!?!?!?!?!
The switch was, that I am complete with putting so much weight on others opinions of things--especially my life. I am feeling "no one can meet you where you need them to", on a deep level. Only I can give myself the Love, support and emotional nourishment I need. If I try to get them to say, do or be the right things, in my mind or otherwise, then I am not in alignment with life and how it really is. I create my own suffering by trying to fit them in my expectations and molds of them saying or doing the "right things." That is delusional. No one can give me the support I need. Only me and all of the aspects of me. :-)
Pretty profound isn't it?!?! This isn't anything new to me. I have been talking about this for months/years. It's just now I feel it on a deeper level. Will I feel it on an even deeper level than I am now? Most likely. It's never ending, since consciousness is never ending, so....
This, my friends, is yet another way to deepen the connection with our true essence; Love. To be human is spiritual. To recognize that our needs are met within first and our external world will then give us support in other ways, is Self Love or what I like to call Self-Full Living. As always, I share with you in the knowledge that it will bring peace and comfort to at least one person. Keep on keepin' on my friends.
Until next time....
Did you miss me? HA! HA! HA! If you are reading this then maybe you really do miss me....or maybe the title caught your eye. Regardless of why you are here, welcome! On we go with the topic of DNA.
If you have been following my blogs, or at the very least looked through my website, you will quickly notice that I am not a scientist, nor do I claim to be a scientist. So what's really fascinating is that, even though I am not a scientist, geneticist, etc., the Universe shares with me when we are all upgrading our DNA. It is definitely one of my gifts that I have in this timeline; to be able to see with my 3rd eye (and energetically) when people are downloading in lots of different forms, not just DNA. Maybe I am a scientist in another timeline. That is quite possible. DNA downloads/upshifts are going on again right now and I am noticing a pattern with it.
The pattern I am noticing is that the bulk of DNA downloads/upshifts happen during August. Maybe it has to do with the Lion's Gate Portal (I highly recommend googling it if you are unfamiliar). Maybe it has to do with the Perseid Meteor Shower that is happening right now. Or both. I haven't gotten the insight on why it is this time of year...yet. It does continually happen throughout the year, however, I get the strongest hits for the collective in August.
At this point you may be wondering what it is that I see. Some of it is easier to describe than others. Descriptions are limited in this reality, however, I will do my best. The easiest for me to describe is that the letters we use to show patterns of DNA/RNA (Which I really don't know much about, even though I learned about it and somewhat understand it, I don't retain much regarding it.) are changing. For example, a DNA sequence can look something like this:
In 2015, Steven Benner, an Organic Chemist, added two more letters, P and Z. I can tell you this much folks, I downloaded more than just two letters in 2013. You may be asking why I am sharing this now. I am typing this because of the pattern of August and I feel a really strong nudge to finally express about the DNA.
Did I have some fear around sharing this? HELL YES! I am not a scientist, or any other "ist" in the realm of working with DNA. However, for the past four Augusts, I have seen a download/upshift with DNA and why else would the Universe share it with me unless I was to share with others. I was told by another person that the info was just for me. HOGWASH! Why would I be shown this and then the Universe says..."Oh, keep it to yourself!" Fuck that. Nope, not gonna do it.
Most of what I see are helixes and energy patterns that are hard to describe. Colors, DNA moving in different patterns, etc. When I started seeing this for the first time in 2013 (at least that is when I acknowledged it), I started to look up information about DNA. I read that we are going from carbon based to crystalline based DNA. From two strand to twelve strand DNA. That really resonated(s) with what I was/am seeing and feeling. As a matter of fact, I also got that we will be going far beyond just a twelve strand. I made be way ahead of myself in sharing this. It may blow the top off of some people's heads. ;-)
The point I am making here is, we are all shifting. Are some shifting more than others? Sooner than others? I would say, yes! However, this does NOT mean they are better than the ones that aren't shifting yet. We all are as a species. We are all evolving and adapting. Some have decided to be the pioneers to get the ball rolling. Others have decided to wait. That's it. No one is better than another. Nor better than another species.
How do you know if you are one of the pioneers? Ask your intuition if you are. Regardless if you are or are not, I applaud you! You are here on this planet! You can make a difference by loving yourself deeper! Believe it or not (always your choice) you will shift DNA by the vibration of Love.
Until next time...
I love those two words. Shift Happens. HA! They have a multitude of meanings. I will probably touch on more than one of the meanings in this post. Again, this is probably going to be a pretty vulnerable post. If you have been reading any of my threads, you will realize that the majority of my posts are open and fairly exposed. If you are a person that has trouble allowing yourself to be open and vulnerable, may you find the strength and courage to do so.(Maybe reading these will help you find the courageous bone that I know is in there!)
Shift happens. This can happen whether we consciously make the shift or not. The next day after writing my last post, I made a conscious shift. It came with a statement. I was finished for now focusing (maybe more like obsessing) on my relationships, except for one of the most important relationships. My relationship with me. I am ready to focus on my business and most importantly, my BIG purpose and role of being here on the planet at this time. When I declared this, another shift occurred with it.
The shift came with my relationship with my husband. (Funny how a shift came with a relationship when I said I was finished with focusing on them for now.) As a matter of fact, I am still feeling pretty raw and exposed with the shift. I admitted to myself that I had put up walls around my heart as a guard in different areas in our relationship. Yep. Me. The one who professes Love in all forms. I also purport that no matter who we are...we can love ourselves deeper, without conditions, which in turn gives us the freedom to love others without the conditions. What this awareness has really shown me was where I have been putting up walls to my own love.
I shared my insights with him reguarding our relationship. It was one of the most profound and enlightening conversations we have ever had up to this point in our entire 14 years together. Will there be many more deep and powerful talks? It sure does feel like it. And WOW. My reaction after the conversation was wild. I had the chance to be by myself after we talked. There were definite and obvious shifts in my being.
I could feel transformation within my cells on all levels. Emotionally I felt like I was completely open, exposed and vulnerable. I cried tears of release along with tears of the innocence that I am. I felt that if a bomb would drop in our relationship, he would tell me to pound sand, or he would die in a freak traffic accident, I would feel that pain to my core. He didn't of course. I only had one person in my recent memory do that--which in my opinion was one of the most selfish things she could have done.
Each day I feel my heart opening more and more. Do I start to feel a little of the old patterns? Yes. However, I can quickly recognize them and feel strong in my new permanent change. I feel more and more in Love with myself on a different level. And that folks, is something no one can take away from me. Not even myself. There is no going back to the way things were. This is the whole new paradigm we are stepping into. Nay...we are in!
I have been getting downloads and messages like mad with my heart opening more. The flood gate is open! They are happening so fast that I am not even trying to grasp on to them anymore. The ones I am to be with and or share will either slown down or I will retain them so I can share with others.
I encourage each and every one of you to take a solid look at your most intimate relationship (other than the one with yourself, which comes into play of course) and take notice if you have any walls built. Not sure how to notice if you do? Take notice of your internal dialogue regarding the person or relationship. Still unclear? I would be honored to help you with those steps. I have first hand knowledge. ;-)
Until next time...
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